Sometimes I sit down here at my computer and nothing comes but sometimes, too much comes. When I’m in my car driving around town or in my bed in the middle of the night, it all seems so clear but once I’m staring at the keyboard my mind goes blank. I suppose I should have called this blog Ramblings of a Mad Woman but everything always comes back to what should I say?
Kevin went up to Vermont this weekend to see his family. He usually runs up there a few times a year without me to pay homage to all things Vermont and occasionally he drags along a child or two but this time he went by himself. When Kevin shows up there, his brothers descend upon the house as well and I don’t really get to talk to him much. I knew he had a one hour drive to the airport this morning so I called him as I was on my way to the gym. One of the discussions of course was about how the blog was going. There are always two choices in my conversations with Kevin; we can talk about me, or on some rare occasions, everything else in the world. This particular conversation was, shockingly enough, about me. This week I received a compliment from somebody important to me and it went as follows:
Important to me person: “I’m really impressed that you’re still doing the blog.”
Me (not that important): “Really? Why’s that?”
Important to me person: “It must be really hard to sit down and write everyday. I’m amazed you have the self discipline to do it.” (ahh, she knows me well!)
Me (not that important): “I don’t actually write everyday. When the mood strikes I just sit down and write multiple entries.”
Important to me person: “You know, your writing is really improving a lot.”
Me (not that important): “Really? Thanks, that’s a huge compliment. I didn’t realize that you were actually reading my blog.”
Important to me person: “Well, I don’t read it everyday but I sit down and read it occasionally.”
Me (not that important): “That seems to be how people do it. They sit down once a week or so and catch up.”
So, what’s the point of this conversation? I have no idea. I’m not all about making points but I was really excited that she was reading the blog as it didn’t seem like her type of thing. It made me realize that maybe I am getting across to people. At the gym the other day, somebody else said that she was an OFFICIAL FOLLOWER now of the blog. “What do you think of it?” I asked her. “Well, it’s you,” was her reply. I suppose that’s what I’m trying to get across so that’s good unless you hate me and then it’s even better.
So, back to Kevin. We were discussing the blog and I was saying that when I had my meeting this week to discuss my new website, the person I was meeting with suggested YouTube broadcasts and podcasts. I have been at this 10 weeks and I’m starting to get a little impatient with how slowly everything is moving. Kevin told me that’s because I have such “lofty goals.” Normally he says “ridiculous goals” so I suppose I should be thankful for that comment. At any rate, I asked him what he thought about the broadcasts and podcasts. Kevin feels that podcasts and broadcasts would be a much better medium for me. “Stand up is all about the material and you’re not really like that” he said. I think your writing is starting to show more of your personality, but really, I agree that you would be great on podcasts and YouTube.” It’s true though. When Kevin and I start having funny conversations, I have been taping them on my iPhone and they’re hilarious. They start on a topic and meander all over the place and if you disregard the hysterical laughter, they’re gems of comedy. Kevin is the perfect partner for me in these conversations as he goads me into the ridiculous and has a dry sense of humor to put up with me. Unfortunately, I have absolutely no clue how to link these files to my blog but I’m sure that the new website will be able to.
It’s too bad that the next conversation wasn’t taped because it was a typical gem between us:
Me: “I guess I have to go to the grocery store after I work out.”
Me: “We have no food in the house. Someone needs to go to the grocery store.”
Kevin: “Lynn, I’ve been in Vermont since Wednesday (it’s Sunday, by the way). Didn’t you pick up any food?”
Me: “No, not really. We need some. We’re even out of milk”
Kevin: “Are you asking me to pick up the food on the way home from the airport?”
Me: (thinking) “What time will that be?”
Kevin: “Are you serious? You are unbelievable!”
Me: “Ok. OK. I’ll just stop on the way home from the workout so that Daniel can have lunch I guess”
Kevin: “What the hell have you been doing all week?”
Me: “That’s a good question (I’m pondering). I can’t really think of anything.”
Kevin: “Good god!”
Me: (laughing) “Don’t worry. I’ll pick up the groceries today but don’t get used to it!”
That’s just a sample of the typical dialogue in this house. We have many such conversations about the most random things and I’ve been taping some of them. So, I’m just thinking about the future of the blog. What do you think? Should I go live? Should I have a buddy go live with me as Kevin is busy and has a real job? Let me know. Thanks for following and by the way, I think my writing is improving too!